I know it's a bit naughty of me to put a fairly unknown composer in this section and I understand if it is to be deleted. However, I've just been to one of her concerts tonight and not only did I have a musical revelation, but I was deeply moved.
To try to explain this I should try to describe Gough's work. Her instrument is the laptop (which I now see as a genuine instrument and didn't before). Her music is recorded from the tinyest things, deconstructed and reconstructed into new sounds. All this is mixed live, by that I mean spacially and the mixing of various samples in front of an audience. Added to the mix are sine waves that are manipulated to great effect, also mixed in live.
The thing I took away most is my realisation that I rely too much on visual stimuli and cues in order to enjoy music. I was able to totally switch off on a concious level and let the music be the cues and stimulation for my own imagination. What this felt like I can't describe properly but I hope everybody can feel the same way at some point. If I were to describe it in two words it would be "me time". It was time for me to get to know myself by how my unconcious (or what I could coax out of my unconcious (which sounds odd I know but bear with me)) gave me the visions of my past and beautiful and terrifying distortions of my previous reality.
I'll never listen to Beethoven the same way, and when I do next I hope to employ the same technique of active listening and not be disrupted by visual cues. As Stockhausen rightly put "The eyes are the ears of out time".
http://www.myspace.com/helenagough
http://www.helenagough.net/
Her music is best heard live, if she comes near your closest city, for god's sake go!!!